I dont understand anymore.
Hard work, dilligence, striving for something greater... I can understand that. I can understand setbacks and trials. I can understand the loss of great friendships and being alone.
I understand all of this. I've done it before, and I'll probably have to do it again.
But I dont understand this anymore. Where does hard turn into the impossible?
When does the perpetual yellow light turn to red? When do I decide to turn back? Should I? Should I let this defeat me... is that what God had planned from the beginning?
To let me plant my feet so firmly in this direction that when he pulls the rug it does a lot more than just bruise my ego.
I dont understand anymore. and I'm tired of it.